Do I want to know?

So here's a question. Do you want to find out that you have a serious illness and give yourself a chance to get treated and maybe live or you don't want to find out and live the rest of your life (however short that maybe) in oblivion and having fun in bits.

So let me state here that there is nothing wrong with me. I have planned a normal health check up with Sonali (co-author of this blog) which includes a mammogram and Pap smear. Our first. 

This plan has been done with much trepidation, anxious discussion and scheduling with her and the guarantee of her company.

Am I the only one worried or afraid of these? Or is this normal ? And back to what I started this with, do I want to know if there is anything wrong? 

I don't live the healthiest of lives. Made lots of mistakes in making choices which have also effected me health wise but yet it's not that bad. Exercise has been the errant man flitting in and out of my life. Healthy home cooked food as made guest appearances in my house here and there and I quit smoking ages ago. Tolerance to alcohol has diminished and mid week partying sacrificed for a good nights sleep. So I should be ok, right?